Through the pieces in BrainStorm, I investigate my lifelong experience with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD). My OCD most commonly manifests as “just right” paralysis, an overwhelming feeling that if what I do is imperfect, it reflects poorly on my own character. BrainStorm is a series of 7 works out of 35 paintings completed during my senior year, many of which remain abandoned or hidden from view. The titles of my pieces are recurring intrusive thoughts and compulsions which have been particularly big hurdles throughout my time at EMU.
I use heavy body acrylic paints and Posca acrylic markers on canvas in layers, starting with an
underpainting of a solid primary color. My method is fairly simple; I sketch with paint to music and let myself freely capture sounds and emotion with bold contrasting colors. As I build up layers of paint, I refine edges and finish the works with thin, detailed lines. I use colorful tape on the walls and floor because I want my work to extend off of the canvas and into the physical space as well (hoping to represent the imposing presence of intruding thoughts, which are impossible to ignore). The electric colors in this series are indicative of strong emotions and energy. Soft shapes and swirls are contrasted against restrictive and rigid lines.
The creation of this series pushed me to learn more about what it means to care for myself and I’m proud that my artwork walks hand-in-hand with me through every part of my growth (even the difficult bits).
